Today is a hard day, I spoke to my ex-boyfriend and told him yesterday that we need not communicate via Internet, phone, or anything else, until we both feel no more feelings for each other. Yesterday when I told him, it didn't seem that hard to do, today all I can think about is how much I wish I could spend time with him. I wasn't a good girlfriend and I guess the what ifs of how it would have been if I had done it right are what hurts the most. I gave him a show, a poor showing of who I really am. He wasn't a good boyfriend but it may have been my fault all along. Damn it was all my fault, it just sucks that I cant fix it because I love him.